I Lost a Friend Today

Six years ago today, lives were altered by a choice. A choice made from a dark place. A place where logic did not reside. A place where the unthinkable became the choice.

I remember sitting numbly in my office, staring blankly at a monitor, trying to wrap my head around a new reality. I didn’t know how to process my thoughts, so I started writing. I wrote to help my brain. I wrote to process my emotions.

For six years an icon sat on my desktop, taunting me. Recently, after attending a stress management class, I read it for the first time since it was written. Now I am sharing it with you.

I lost a friend today
Boys to pray for
I don’t know what to say
Darkness closes in
Why does life have to go this way
Friends to hug
For my agony I pray
Afraid to sleep
Turn the night to day
Memories to cherish
My twisted mind I must pay
Grasp on reality slipping
Some how I must stay
Others to help
Near sanity, yet it’s so far away
Inside raging
At the cross it must lay
Cling to my God
I lost a friend today

Today, my friend’s son Carson Schmidt is releasing his debut album entitled “IDENTITY”. As you can surmise, this date is significant to the release as well as the content. With haunting vocals and moody melodies, it is an exquisite exploration of the depths of human emotions. I invite you to take the time to listen and consider purchasing it.
http://www.carsonschmidtmusic.com/
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/identity/id1173944502

Please, if you are not in a good place, if you are in a dark place, find an outlet. Before things get worse, please find help so an unalterable choice is not made. There are resources available to help you through dark times. What may seem like a good choice alters so many lives in unimaginable ways. Please don’t choose a permanent solution for a temporary problem.